Granted.
I am not the typical "nice guy". But...
Am I hipp? Am I cool enough? Competent? Talented enough? Do I tick all your boxes?
Can't be sure anymore. My peers at work told me I was pretty great at work.
They liked me. They said so. They seemed honest about.
And they probably still do.
However.
I have been off work now since the beginning of 2021. And searching diligently and continuously.
And it's not because there are no open positions.
It's not because I am not competent, not because I'm too lazy.
It's not because I happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Or is it?
And it's not because I am a bad mother-fucker.
Have I stolen anything? Other than some attention?...
I have my own thoughts, which I might have in common with you or share with you. I might be poetic about it, or even frustrated, and God forbid - I might embrace an inconvenient truth (to someone, that is) or adhere to my own opinion when you hope or even expect that I should accept yours, since I just don't buy into the concept of betraying oneself for something else. Of course I might need to choose my words better, and go about conflicts ever more gracefully, but the fact of the matter is that I don't comply only because someone says so.
I pride on being myself and have my own personality, and I just don't feel the need to adjust my feelings and my opinions in order to fit in.
Even if it is very hipp-hipp in this day and age to follow and comply. And very NOT cool to adhere to what I want to.
Or is it my only flaw that I'm heterosexual guy, pretty normal in that sense, fairly educated, well versed, an original piece indeed but quite normal, so I cannot tick any of the more exotic boxes regarding LGBTQ+++ even if I tick almost every other diversity box out there?
Hmmm. Let me think. What's missing? (This photo was taken by myself after acting as an object for a student at the Make-Up Institute in Stockholm. This one time was all I could put up with)
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